keep it short

Oh how I love those little emails, it’s so tempting

I have so much to say, but no I’ll keep it short

Cause after all I am a whore for the attention

And if I want to play this game I have to keep it short

You must know what you’re doing, you can’t be that blind

You’ve lived long enough and hard enough to know this isn’t right

To still contact me even if it isn’t over a want for me

I just don’t understand it, maybe I’m the one not seeing things right

Anyone else in your shoes would sever all ties

Delete the phone number, email and forget the website

How else are you supposed to start a new life with your new guy

It makes me wonder if you did the same thing to me in my time

With all the guys that came before me and my time

But oh well, why should I care now, it’s no longer my time to shine

I’m now just the fly in the ointment, infecting with flight

And for some unknown reason you keep putting time aside to write

To a love you walked out on like you were just saying goodnight

Not even a Dear John note to say goodbye and burn for spite

No you just left for work never again to be seen by my eyes

“Have a nice day, baby. I love you”

Those last words I kissed off your lips and still fight

I hear them laugh in my face when I go to lay my head at night

Three little words I can’t block out because they’re just too bright

But I admit it was our time for execution

I treated you like dirt and gave no promises or solutions

Never even tried to fix the problems or make decisions

Just expected you to stay after countless break ups for no good reasons

Fourth time was the charm, LA gave that final break

Flew back home cold and alone wondering if things would be the same

But the song had been sung, and with my return came a change

I knew deep down in my heart I’d killed our flame

And that what I found inside had come too late and would be a waste

And in those last few weeks feelings started to uncover

That took you leaving so abruptly for me to discover

Buried under all my selfishness and greed

Lays a person who truly wants nothing more then to be

A part of a love that isn’t forced and feels complete

And the truth is you gave all of that to me

I was just to busy chasing ghosts to clearly see

So now you’re just another ghost haunting me

And I’m the guy you text when your boyfriend’s being mean

How funny and ironic that guy used to be me

Just makes me wonder what the guy before me

Thought about the texts to sent to him about me

And when he asked you to come over did you say maybe

Or say I wish I could be he is here with me

Or sneak off to act out your revenge on me

The part the eats at me is I wouldn’t believe you now either way

The way you ended things has left you and your actions a stranger to me

And I’m not sure if I’ll every trust another word you say

But still my love for you won’t let me walk any further away

And I’m not prepared to be that guy, but I’m falling in

Erased all your info to keep from stalking you

But when you text and email I can’t help but respond to all of them

It’s just so hard to turn that love off, when I feel I could still win

It’s not a game if only one person is playing

A love that wasn’t forced is hard to reject, again and again

It’s hard to say no to a girl I actually loved as a friend

As I pretend I don’t still think about you, with every day rise and day end

Always trying to keep it short, waiting for the next game to begin