holy water

Bottled empty space, the liquid only waits

For lips to kiss the taste, reveal the chase

Too scared of noises bodies make

When alone they only stand to break

In search of soiled earth to shake, and fall in place

We all taste the same, like holy water

We all look the same, like holy water

We all shine the same, like holy water

We all burn the same, like holy water

Fingers pricked to feed, give life new seeds

You can give but do not take, you're a past mistake

When the future washes bodies clean

The engines purr, the cogs they heave

In a machine that can't break, no parts to replace

We all taste the same, like holy water

We all look the same, like holy water

We all shine the same, like holy water

We all burn the same, like holy water

With hands that can't see, we dot our eyes

Make crosses of our stick figure t's, evil get behind

With a mind too scared to lose control

We clench fists tight and won't let go

With a toothless face, we smile wide

We all taste the same, like holy water

We all look the same, like holy water

We all shine the same, like holy water

We all burn the same, like holy water

sinking or shrinking

She said goodbye and put a pad-lock on the door

Swallowed the key just to be extra sure

But then fear stepped in, poured water on the floor

Now there’s a river between two oceanic hearts that live as shores

And she’s been paddling herself back and forth

In a boat safe for one and no more

And every time she lifts her oars, she creates tidal bores 

As her boat sinks slowly, forever lost offshore

It’s not the transport that is sinking

The destination is just shrinking

He drove away and down shifted his pain

Removed all maps from a glove box with no fingers to count his claims

Let them fade from his memory, rip holes in her frame

Erase all existence of previous travels like a father with no son to bare his name

But with no maps to guide him, all those dark roads looked the same

And that town he found felt welcome, but wasn’t found without aim

Littered with faces of retired actors using alias stage names

He’s been home all along with only himself to blame

It’s not the transport that is sinking

The destination is just shrinking

In the morning neither one of our victims learned a thing

Both held captive by their own stubbornness and refusal to change

Still chasing phantom ghosts, finding only emptiness and turning self estranged

Lining up lovers like coke cans in an open heartless firing range

And as the bodies pile high, so rises the odor of their fame

Angry townsfolk grow tired of their antics, bring torches to set flames

To these monsters that only take, and give back nothing but pain

Both too blind to see it’s the fear of losing love again that has made them this way

It’s not the transport that is sinking

The destination is just shrinking

complementary colors

The colors bleed and we run to hold true

Standing by lines, drawn only to keep us inside

But still colors bleed and erase our truth

Scared of what we’ll bleed into

In my reality I give no more than I have to give

At any moment I could give you all

But no sense in speaking of tomorrow and yesterday is gone

The only shadow I follow is the one that sets at dawn

Sailing this ship in search of an invisible dock to crash upon

Letting time dissolve as I try to lap the sun

The colors bleed and we run to hold true

Standing by lines, drawn only to keep us inside

But still colors bleed and erase our truth

Scared of what we’ll bleed into

These hands they hold more than they need

Lost in the paths in the palms

Hoping for a grip to appease these restless bones

Something to mold into as opposed to just hold

Only to let go when the veins begin to show

Scared the numbness will engulf me and my soul

The colors bleed and we run to hold true

Standing by lines, drawn only to keep us inside

But still colors bleed and erase our truth

Scared of what we’ll bleed into

My silent words are more than what they may seem to be

They are my company in this stagnant cold, my warm memories

The thought of warm skin, soft lips, keeps me enchanted like a kite in the wind

Giving into a sick mind, in dark times, black out the sun and live within

And dance silent under my control in a world I manipulate

Where opposing colors can never meet to create grey

The colors bleed and we run to hold true

Standing by lines, drawn only to keep us inside

But still colors bleed and erase our truth

Scared of what we’ll bleed into

you ruin love for everyone

Why must my cruel words be said?

You spread your love too soon, now we’re dead too soon

You’ve forced me into this hate

Turned my love into a parachute to catch you

I never wanted to lose you, tried my best to abstain

But I can’t take much more, your resentment kills me

To think you feel the same pain and ignore your heart in vain

This fake person I did not foresee

Next time you feel the need to put words to my name

And tell me you still love the same

Fast forward till tomorrow, when you take it away

And I’m left alone to fill the holes you made

Your pain hits me like a gun

You give and take, all for one

Your lies hit me like a gun

You ruin love, for everyone

I have a sick need to please you

You’ve always known this, you seem happy to still control this

But after all the thread I’ve seen you twine

I now know you were never mine, no you live inside

You say you long for a simple love

But is there anyone to match what you dream of

You say your happy now, but you still call

You say he treats you great, but the tears still fall

I no longer know who you are at all

I feel you’re just latching on as the hearts sprawl

And as much as it pains me to put up this wall

I’m done watching you crawl

Your pain hits me like a gun

You give and take, all for one

Your lies hit me like a gun

You ruin love, for everyone

I can’t repeat enough how I never wanted it this way

Deep down I actually thought things could change

And why not, considering the things you say

But now I realize you just say these things to be heard saying them

You want everyone to love you

Your lips to never turn cold, no heart to shun you

To scared to end this game you’ve made

To let our love become what it was, a waste

And in the end it was you who made it this way

I would have done anything for you, to keep the clouds away

But now I’m gone and you’re dead to me

No different than the way you’ve been treating me

Your pain hits me like a gun

You give and take, all for one

Your lies hit me like a gun

You ruin love, for everyone

open sea

With a tip from the bottom
A quick change to the clouds
Only conversations of weather
Can storm between us now
Two hearts, born strangers
Too used and torn apart
We had our time to shine
Now it’s time to unwind

As I sail on this sea
Lost in what I can’t see
It’s the waves that comfort me

Too far gone to make her smile
Pain is all she holds for me
When actions come too late
It’s only fate that helps you see
With my heart wide open
I try to mend our past wounds
But the love she had is gone
And in its place now lives gloom

As I sail on this sea
Lost in what I can’t see
It’s the waves that comfort me

I know this song won’t mean a thing
I know my words will fall short
They just had to be said
Relieve some pressure from my head
I’ll still fight, I’ll still bother
My awkward ways won’t change
It’s just the side effect
Of all my love for you left in me

As I sail on this sea
Lost in what I can’t see
It’s the waves that comfort me

Our love it lives on in me
Even if yours is gone
I replay it every night
I put a dance to the song
So from my top, to my bottom
You can tear my heart down
Our past is yours to be forgotten
But it’s mine to be found

As I sail on this sea
Lost in what I can’t see
It’s the waves that comfort me

cigarettes & coffey

Cigarettes and coffey, once upon a time

I loved em both, yeah they were my valentines

Such a warm embrace to die for something you love

All those heart attacks, they sure taught me

You can’t live to die young knowingly

We all pave the paths we chose once the potholes show

In the wee hours, I miss the taste

Of life’s habits I’m too weak to chase

And miss the midnight kiss of paths unknown

In the wee hours I miss the face

Of life’s habits I’m too weak to face

And miss the warm embrace of a path unknown

All the stop signs, they sure stopped me

Put in place to keep us safe

But oh how I so long for the wrong side of the road

With the windows down and the volume up

No guard rails to segregate our touch

Just the smell of warm tires and uninhibited love

In the wee hours, I miss the taste

Of life’s habits I’m too weak to chase

And miss the midnight kiss of paths unknown

In the wee hours I miss the face

Of life’s habits I’m too weak to face

And miss the warm embrace of a path unknown

In the morning’s eyes, I don’t look the same

She’s moved on and forgot the name

She was my happy habit; I was her part time man

Dragging me down, just to put me up

We had our fun, but I had to give her up

But after all the doctors warnings I still hear her name

In the wee hours, I miss the taste

Of life’s habits I’m too weak to chase

And miss the midnight kiss of paths unknown

In the wee hours I miss the face

Of life’s habits I’m too weak to face

And miss the warm embrace of a path unknown

make pretend

The memories are still clear

We still love in my mind

A past that refuses to be forgotten

To think of you when she is near

There is no excuse to make it right

I only know I’ll get no sleep tonight

So I lay here and fear, the best parts of me are gone

And pretend to move on

Yeah I lay here and fear, I’ll always be singing her song

As I pretend to move on

These eyes need help to see

Even in sunlight they lose time

But no darkness can mask her outline

To live with the sight, become defined by the fight

What do you hold on for

When you’ve forgotten why you hold on

So I lay here and fear, the best parts of me are gone

And pretend to move on

Yeah I lay here and fear, I’ll always be singing her song

As I pretend to move on

The phone lines can go dead

It can’t stop the dreams

Is it still cheating if your eyes are closed

Counting down till the next roll over

A blinking clock is what you crave

Anything to take the deadline away

So I lay here and fear, the best parts of me are gone

And pretend to move on

Yeah I lay here and fear, I’ll always be singing her song

As I pretend to move on