you ruin love for everyone

Why must my cruel words be said?

You spread your love too soon, now we’re dead too soon

You’ve forced me into this hate

Turned my love into a parachute to catch you

I never wanted to lose you, tried my best to abstain

But I can’t take much more, your resentment kills me

To think you feel the same pain and ignore your heart in vain

This fake person I did not foresee

Next time you feel the need to put words to my name

And tell me you still love the same

Fast forward till tomorrow, when you take it away

And I’m left alone to fill the holes you made

Your pain hits me like a gun

You give and take, all for one

Your lies hit me like a gun

You ruin love, for everyone

I have a sick need to please you

You’ve always known this, you seem happy to still control this

But after all the thread I’ve seen you twine

I now know you were never mine, no you live inside

You say you long for a simple love

But is there anyone to match what you dream of

You say your happy now, but you still call

You say he treats you great, but the tears still fall

I no longer know who you are at all

I feel you’re just latching on as the hearts sprawl

And as much as it pains me to put up this wall

I’m done watching you crawl

Your pain hits me like a gun

You give and take, all for one

Your lies hit me like a gun

You ruin love, for everyone

I can’t repeat enough how I never wanted it this way

Deep down I actually thought things could change

And why not, considering the things you say

But now I realize you just say these things to be heard saying them

You want everyone to love you

Your lips to never turn cold, no heart to shun you

To scared to end this game you’ve made

To let our love become what it was, a waste

And in the end it was you who made it this way

I would have done anything for you, to keep the clouds away

But now I’m gone and you’re dead to me

No different than the way you’ve been treating me

Your pain hits me like a gun

You give and take, all for one

Your lies hit me like a gun

You ruin love, for everyone

open sea

With a tip from the bottom
A quick change to the clouds
Only conversations of weather
Can storm between us now
Two hearts, born strangers
Too used and torn apart
We had our time to shine
Now it’s time to unwind

As I sail on this sea
Lost in what I can’t see
It’s the waves that comfort me

Too far gone to make her smile
Pain is all she holds for me
When actions come too late
It’s only fate that helps you see
With my heart wide open
I try to mend our past wounds
But the love she had is gone
And in its place now lives gloom

As I sail on this sea
Lost in what I can’t see
It’s the waves that comfort me

I know this song won’t mean a thing
I know my words will fall short
They just had to be said
Relieve some pressure from my head
I’ll still fight, I’ll still bother
My awkward ways won’t change
It’s just the side effect
Of all my love for you left in me

As I sail on this sea
Lost in what I can’t see
It’s the waves that comfort me

Our love it lives on in me
Even if yours is gone
I replay it every night
I put a dance to the song
So from my top, to my bottom
You can tear my heart down
Our past is yours to be forgotten
But it’s mine to be found

As I sail on this sea
Lost in what I can’t see
It’s the waves that comfort me

cigarettes & coffey

Cigarettes and coffey, once upon a time

I loved em both, yeah they were my valentines

Such a warm embrace to die for something you love

All those heart attacks, they sure taught me

You can’t live to die young knowingly

We all pave the paths we chose once the potholes show

In the wee hours, I miss the taste

Of life’s habits I’m too weak to chase

And miss the midnight kiss of paths unknown

In the wee hours I miss the face

Of life’s habits I’m too weak to face

And miss the warm embrace of a path unknown

All the stop signs, they sure stopped me

Put in place to keep us safe

But oh how I so long for the wrong side of the road

With the windows down and the volume up

No guard rails to segregate our touch

Just the smell of warm tires and uninhibited love

In the wee hours, I miss the taste

Of life’s habits I’m too weak to chase

And miss the midnight kiss of paths unknown

In the wee hours I miss the face

Of life’s habits I’m too weak to face

And miss the warm embrace of a path unknown

In the morning’s eyes, I don’t look the same

She’s moved on and forgot the name

She was my happy habit; I was her part time man

Dragging me down, just to put me up

We had our fun, but I had to give her up

But after all the doctors warnings I still hear her name

In the wee hours, I miss the taste

Of life’s habits I’m too weak to chase

And miss the midnight kiss of paths unknown

In the wee hours I miss the face

Of life’s habits I’m too weak to face

And miss the warm embrace of a path unknown

make pretend

The memories are still clear

We still love in my mind

A past that refuses to be forgotten

To think of you when she is near

There is no excuse to make it right

I only know I’ll get no sleep tonight

So I lay here and fear, the best parts of me are gone

And pretend to move on

Yeah I lay here and fear, I’ll always be singing her song

As I pretend to move on

These eyes need help to see

Even in sunlight they lose time

But no darkness can mask her outline

To live with the sight, become defined by the fight

What do you hold on for

When you’ve forgotten why you hold on

So I lay here and fear, the best parts of me are gone

And pretend to move on

Yeah I lay here and fear, I’ll always be singing her song

As I pretend to move on

The phone lines can go dead

It can’t stop the dreams

Is it still cheating if your eyes are closed

Counting down till the next roll over

A blinking clock is what you crave

Anything to take the deadline away

So I lay here and fear, the best parts of me are gone

And pretend to move on

Yeah I lay here and fear, I’ll always be singing her song

As I pretend to move on

living dead

I’ve gone and put my dirt on the line

So many times my coffin is bare

You see the etching in the grain

My graves exposed for all to spit upon and shame

I’m dead and done with arrogance

Willing to admit I want something more then this

As you so selfishly tempt me to live again

Only to attempt crawling out and fall back in

We are the living dead

I’m trying to make us breathe again

We are the living dead

But all you can say is try again

I’ve had some visitors to my grave

The pink roses kept me from going zombie

But the connection just isn’t the same

Hard to push blame when I’m dead and rotting

The pieces fit but always fall off

In the end I’m left missing myself and with a bigger want

To breathe again and smell the grass

That now covers our unkempt path

We are the living dead

I’m trying to make us breathe again

We are the living dead

But all you can say is try again

I’m sick of trying to climb out

It’s getting me no where quick

When every time you extend your hand

I reach out to you, just to find it slip

Your retraction is nothing new to me

In fact it’s slowly helping me see

It’s time for me to roll in my grave

And find someone to dig with me

We are the living dead

I’m trying to make us breathe again

We are the living dead

But all you can say is try again

till the night fades away

Yours is such a tender heart

So easily ripped apart

Doomed from the start

To lose your way

We’re heating up the charts

Glowing in the darkest of darks

In the lifespan of any star

There lives the fade away

I’ll be your nightlight, baby

Use me to guide your way

Yeah I’m your nightlight, baby

Till the night fades away

You’re looking lonely, dear

You need a mask for the fear

Maybe an open ear

To hear your pain

I’ll always be here

Too far is not enough, my dear

I’ll make the darkness clear

And chase the rain

I’ll be your nightlight, baby

Use me to guide your way

Yeah I’m your nightlight, baby

Till the night fades away

You want me here to stay

But no one’s willing to change

Too much time in the day

To give away

Maybe we would pay

Or maybe we would find our way

Our own Independence Day

Neon dancing to a cabaret

I’ll be your nightlight, baby

Use me to guide your way

Yeah I’m your nightlight, baby

Till the night fades away

keep it short

Oh how I love those little emails, it’s so tempting

I have so much to say, but no I’ll keep it short

Cause after all I am a whore for the attention

And if I want to play this game I have to keep it short

You must know what you’re doing, you can’t be that blind

You’ve lived long enough and hard enough to know this isn’t right

To still contact me even if it isn’t over a want for me

I just don’t understand it, maybe I’m the one not seeing things right

Anyone else in your shoes would sever all ties

Delete the phone number, email and forget the website

How else are you supposed to start a new life with your new guy

It makes me wonder if you did the same thing to me in my time

With all the guys that came before me and my time

But oh well, why should I care now, it’s no longer my time to shine

I’m now just the fly in the ointment, infecting with flight

And for some unknown reason you keep putting time aside to write

To a love you walked out on like you were just saying goodnight

Not even a Dear John note to say goodbye and burn for spite

No you just left for work never again to be seen by my eyes

“Have a nice day, baby. I love you”

Those last words I kissed off your lips and still fight

I hear them laugh in my face when I go to lay my head at night

Three little words I can’t block out because they’re just too bright

But I admit it was our time for execution

I treated you like dirt and gave no promises or solutions

Never even tried to fix the problems or make decisions

Just expected you to stay after countless break ups for no good reasons

Fourth time was the charm, LA gave that final break

Flew back home cold and alone wondering if things would be the same

But the song had been sung, and with my return came a change

I knew deep down in my heart I’d killed our flame

And that what I found inside had come too late and would be a waste

And in those last few weeks feelings started to uncover

That took you leaving so abruptly for me to discover

Buried under all my selfishness and greed

Lays a person who truly wants nothing more then to be

A part of a love that isn’t forced and feels complete

And the truth is you gave all of that to me

I was just to busy chasing ghosts to clearly see

So now you’re just another ghost haunting me

And I’m the guy you text when your boyfriend’s being mean

How funny and ironic that guy used to be me

Just makes me wonder what the guy before me

Thought about the texts to sent to him about me

And when he asked you to come over did you say maybe

Or say I wish I could be he is here with me

Or sneak off to act out your revenge on me

The part the eats at me is I wouldn’t believe you now either way

The way you ended things has left you and your actions a stranger to me

And I’m not sure if I’ll every trust another word you say

But still my love for you won’t let me walk any further away

And I’m not prepared to be that guy, but I’m falling in

Erased all your info to keep from stalking you

But when you text and email I can’t help but respond to all of them

It’s just so hard to turn that love off, when I feel I could still win

It’s not a game if only one person is playing

A love that wasn’t forced is hard to reject, again and again

It’s hard to say no to a girl I actually loved as a friend

As I pretend I don’t still think about you, with every day rise and day end

Always trying to keep it short, waiting for the next game to begin

creepy

Chasing the hour glass nightly, I slam it till it’s gone

Wonder silently am I the only one wound this tightly

Eventually I gotta give, stop this dreaming, start to live

This battle ax is starting to make its mark

Leaving me blind as a deaf bat wearing ear muffs

No longer seeing straight, can’t seem to relate

Going out in public awkward, too creepy to get a date

It’s like the only thing that gets me past these crowds is booze

And then it seems I’m just acting loud and rude

But I really can’t complain, it’s worked damn well in the past

I’ve found the best loves of my life being a drunken ass

But I’m getting too old to still be acting like I have no class

I want that part of me dead, his life to pass

And no I’m not trying to hate, yeah those days were a blast

I’m just ready to grow and stop relying on an empty glass

I wanna meet a pretty girl dead sober

And still have the courage to ask if she’d like to come over

Lie like spoons and watch horror movies on my sofa

I’m not trying to rule your world; I just wanna get to know ya

These are the visions that now make me weak in my knees

Wanting to be part of a love that won’t break apart on me

Finding some love for myself inside this empty cart

So maybe things won’t always end with two broken hearts

And maybe it’s needy that I’m now so fixated on love

Like it’s a drug I use to erase the hold of old gloves

But it is and always was; yeah that is nothing new for me

It’s always been my only enjoyable reason for being

So till then I’ll lie in bed and pretend I’m sleeping

When actually I’m tossing and turning while day dreaming

Of my next dose of female attention, my favorite drug

The only side effect is I have a hard time falling out of love

prison planet

We hide together from each other

In this prison we’ve made

Wrapped in hiding love from a lover

Such a hollow game to play

And in this darkness that we lay

We forget to give and only take

So wrapped up in lying to each other

The truth slips away

Lying captive, sinking away

A taste like poison soon takes over

Just to numb the pain

From words that cut on the way out

Almost to sharp to say

Leaving ears that fear and hear them

No longer willing to be near them

Words that should be silenced

Will find their way to solace

Lying captive, sinking away

To this wall we have been chained

No windows will change a thing

The sights we see through them

Will only push us further away

Looking for pillows to grace gentle

As we’re released to live separately

Free to start a new life

If we can just walk away

Lying captive, sinking away

nights crush like stone

Is it the taste I miss or just having it anytime I wish

If we could love the same would I even still want it

The longing is all I see, it sucks me in, overwhelming me

To be alones ok, until it’s night, then the silence destroys me

To have and learn to hold, is the worst thing I’ve known

No once the sheets have gone cold, nights crush like stone

So now I sit alone and watch girls slowly walk away

While I imagine what they hide, if they could somehow love the same

As the girls I’m trying not to find, forgetting all their names

To me this game has become tiresome, I no longer want to play

To have and learn to hold, is the worst thing I’ve known

No once the sheets have gone cold, nights crush like stone

If I can’t come to grips it’s over, no reason to quit

Pushing for something that will never come, moon chasing the sun

Maybe once scars have healed, I will find that missing piece

And I will know just who I miss at night, sleeping next to me

To have and learn to hold, is the worst thing I’ve known

No once the sheets have gone cold, nights crush like stone